(P.S.: Turned out to be a very long blog after I finished typing it, veryy longg — after reading it again, there are so many “I blah blah” – not nice – but I will leave it this way for now, should improve soon)
I have been really overwhelmed with changes in my life recently. In the other side, I am really enjoying it. I have never been so busy but I truly enjoy learning new things and have more responsibility. It feels so right to be in this stage of my life.
Tonight, I have the urge to blog, it has almost been 2 months since my last regular blog. To start again, it is indeed hard since i lost the habit of writing. However, I just looked back a bit and i want to share with you the gist of my life till now, it was truly something to be thankful of.
Past, present and future. We are bound by this 4th dimension called time. I, yes me, call it ‘blessing’.
Let’s get a rocket view of it, counting down from 14…
14 years ago, just at the RIGHT juncture, I was looking for a belief to hang on, and there was, my friend, Arif to invite me to children meeting. How? Who told him? Why? I don’t know, but I cannot thank him enough for being God’s vessel to bring me to church life, where I am here till this second.
12 years ago, just at the RIGHT juncture yet again, at the very time I was the most rebellious, God called me to be baptized and 10 months later He called me to come to this church blending/conference in Surabaya. My parents forbid me to go, and was very strong about it. A serving sister came by and that alone made me cry that night. The next second i knew, i was allowed to go and this was the first time i heard about my human spirit, and that I’m a vessel for God to dwell in. It changed my life second time.
10 years ago, I don’t think i need to tell how right the time was, I was seeking more of truth. Just that moment, again, “right time”, the recovery version footnotes was completely translated into Indonesian and starting to be distributed to the churches. After seeing it once, I got so curious, and finally got a chance to borrow recovery version bible. At the time i could not afford this bible, so i had to borrow it or making a loan to buy it. I insisted a brother to borrow the bible for 2 days from him, and that night I spent unexpectedly 5 hours reading the Lord’ second coming chart on the back. I was so intrigued, it motivated me to study the bible for the next 3 years of my life in which I got the most of the Word in me.
8 years ago, at the time of uncertainty, I happened to read a book about obeying older ones. The next day, at university fair, I prayed for a guidance from older relative, and there it was, he straightly pointed me to booth of an agent bringing to Canada. Canada, by the way, is a continent, where I was sure I would never be able to stay in my lifetime. My point is, again, how is reading that book on that day brought this little Indonesian to Canada???
6 years ago, with choices to go to Burnaby, Toronto or Waterloo, I wholeheartedly will go anywhere but Waterloo. It so happened that I have no reply from the other 2 universities but Waterloo. Church life in Waterloo was healthiest at the time, I was preserved. Thank the Lord!
4 years ago, world’s economy was start to decline sharply, I had to live on coins. I badly needed a job to finish my school. I checked every single tech company in Waterloo and applied so many jobs. Middle of June it was, I gave it up. I surrendered to the Lord. Suddenly, email with interview request came by. I went and got the job just under 4 hours later. That job is my current job now, full-time.
2 years ago, I got my full-time job. Everyone else was having one of the hardest time to find one. Economy is on the near-bottom. I could not have asked for more blessing. It was just perfect. I got my first car, just the day after i got my G2.
0 years ago, with mortgage interest being the record low in Canada, I scored the deal and got my first house.
You see?? Map these pairs!
looking => found Christ
seeking heart => given a vision
heart to know more => fully translated study bible
choosing where to go => straight guidance at the last minute
choosing university => only one way out – the best one
personal financial crisis => got 8-month internship leading to permanent job
world economy crisis => secured a job, got a car
record low mortgage => got a house
I mean…how can i ever complain…things just happened at the exact right time, not the way I wanted, but it sure turned out so awesomely perfect.
You probably have noticed i went through timeline of every 2 years. What is not told above is the year before each occurences. There is always something special before each one, something that made me ready for the next step. I believe the Lord is leading me to the next step, maybe not every 2 years anymore, but right now, present is really a gift, a gift that will manifest itself in the near future as long I am open to it. Future awaits, and my eye is on it, but my feet has to walk on the present, and I cannot be happier to lean on Him, my Lord Jesus Christ.
Without staying on homestay situation the year before, I wouldn’t have been qualified in my opinion, to be responsible enough to own my own house. Without getting a hard time in self-finance problems the year before, I would not have been wise in using my full-time job salary. Without experiencing hard labour and stress from university + work + burden the year before , I would not have been likeable and trustworthy in my internship. Without learning to live far away from home and trusting the Lord the year before, I would have preferred anything else but living in a small city like Waterloo. (Now, I live here and I’m loving it!) Without pursuing the Lord the year before, I would have never had a chance to go to North America. (my parent would not have trusted me) Without being under the patterns of university-age brothers the year before, I would not be pursuing study of the Word. Without being rebellious and going to the camp that year, where I had one of my worst moment in life, I would not have been baptized. Without misreplacing a book two years before, I would not have received my friend invitation. No Andree in Canada, no spiritual birth, nothing. Everything leads to another, and yet, Romans 8:28 tells us that everything works together for good to those who love Him!
I don’t believe in coincidence, I believe in destiny. We have our choices, but God knows what’s the right time for us to experience these things. Next in my path is marriage and more training. I believe the same principle will apply, and it’s already in the making. I believe this even when right now I don’t have a girlfriend yet and I am still far from owning the right citizenship. I am excited, and need to be always reminded of this blessing coming my way.
“My destiny is GOD” – K.J,
Andree